so this love i'm writing about. yes, it is beautiful. and shared. and something built upon for some years now. but it is also fragile. just as vulnerable to being lost to us as our lives are to death. i am more aware of this now, having grown, matured and refined as a woman. as a lover. as a keeper of truth.
so for not one moment do i take us for granted. above all things, we are friends. he is one of my best. so i treat this with the same sanctity i treat every friendship. we are kindred. connected. and all of that must be handled with great care. we must remember, just because a great love is and we are living in it, it does not mean we can take it for granted. cannot assume it will always be there, always be what the both of us want.
so i look to treat it with the utmost respect. honor it with my presence and gratitude. to the Creator. to him. to my own heart, mind and soul knowing the gift i am blessed with and having the fortitude to treat it as such.
whatever may come, whatever may be. i know i love him so. he has my heart. and if there was ever a day he wasn't sure he wanted it, or decided he didn't . i'll fight for us....but i'd relent to his happiness, and seek to salve my own. because that is Love. that is it's richness. that is its gift. selflessness. humility. minfulness. sacrifice. giving. with all you have.
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