Tuesday, September 25, 2012

AMUN AMEN ASE'O

The Universe complies.
Allat/Allah provides.
You were even born with God inside.

My Love, you are already profoundly blessed.
Brilliantly so.
Recognize the nature of your Divinity | the divinity of your Nature.

(message from Spirit World. Give thanks, Ancestors. ♥)

Healing empowers.

I love healing. It's this journey feeling like happenstance. As sweetly, lingeringly you ease into forgiveness, acceptance, nostalgia, master of the lesson you've just learned. It is awesome, magnificent, fortifying, supreme. I woke up today with such restored light and energy. My joy unfolds plentifully, pouring into overflow. I feel so good, and am sleepy as hell with the widest, most ecstatic smile across my face. 

LOVE YALL. 

Have Incredible Tuesdays! 

Reflecting...

I attract who I am.
I attract who I am.
I attract who I am.

What's inside me finds me everywhere I go.

I am listening God. I hear you. Though divided with my resting, you have my full attention.

(Prayers said; back to bed.)

To watch pain move around you.

Ever catch the sight of pain?
How it sounds emerging from a being?

The way it rises from the belly deep
like smoke from a chimney
unfurling through their wholeness
settling in the center of their throat
the tension choking their breath
pulling in their face
settling in your eyes like nests

where it can only break in
hot tears
and cries for release
and relief.

As the voyeur, your compassion reaches for hugs and the hurt folds into it, aching to be held. I love my heart for being this to anyone. For attracting those who give it to me without question, thought, concern, or selfish contemplation on how this looks/feels/is for them. THANKFUL.

Ankh Udja Seneb. Tua Ntr. ALL PRAISES DUE!

Be Beautiful Days, my Loves.

My Before-Dawn :)

The wee hours of morning are my most nakedly reflective times. I am explosively exposed with only me, the angels, my Grammy, my friend the Moon, and God. I laugh, I speak my prayers & full heart aloud in whispers. I almost shout sometimes. I cry, lament, hope and let go. The ease of sleep finds me instantly afterward. I call this time Before-Dawn. :)

SANKOFA FLIES AGAIN AND AGAIN

I've been thinking about me & my previous college life again. I am comfortable & secure to say I was wrong. I made a mistake, I took a bad turn. Made infertile choices. I failed over & over. I also acknowledge I did much right & good in between. Some grand & great achievement happened. I like saying it just this way & feeling it. It feels good. I'm not heartbroken with where I've been or where I h
aven't. Yet, I feel the deepest heartache for every person I've disappointed in all of it. I remember my whole family coming together when I was 18 & moving on to IUB for the GROUPS program. Having my back hardcore. I remember every advisor & professor who looked at me with confused wonder, of how someone they deem with much prowess & potential won't work with it. Every fellow scholar & friend who pushed for me to raise the stakes higher. I got bottomless wells of wealth from longtime experience with higher learning, but I didn't take the fullest advantage. I know -- I was where I was when I was & it was right for me then. Losing everything led to life-changing experiences. I also see the mistakes so clear. I am grateful for ALL of it. Looking back helps me better orchestrate my present plan of action. My wisdom, knowledge & understanding increases the more I fly with Sankofa. 
 

The privilege of being privy...

you ever watch someone grow and become?

it's amazing.

who they once were.
who they fought to be.
who they accepted within.
where they came from.
where they've gone.
where they are.

the work seen and unseen.
the responsibility, accountability, perseverance.
the falling apart, breaking down, letting go.
the pushing forward, pulling up, keeping on.
the beginning, end and in between.
a lot of Sankofa and Kujichagulia.

it's amazing. what you're allowed to see, just watching, from their side.

Young Earth - Full(er) Moon

Yes yes people. It's true. 

I am a 33 year young woman and inside me constantly beats the heart of a 14 year young girl! All fresh and new to her love, other loves, possible loves, deep crushes, the world surrounding her, the body she's been blessed to house all her treasures, gifts, talents, power, strength and tools. 

Mildly experienced, desirous yet shy, quick to emote yet slow to manifest (take
it slooooow), easy, soft, careful, thoughtful, stubborn in who she is to a fault. Yes, she comes by it honestly, and sometimes get's exasperated by her own folds of humanity... til the divine inside shines from down deep (God's Reminder ;)). 
Innocently beguiling, self-awareness continuously anew, easily trusting because she Sees you. Third Eye never blind, though vision sometimes blurry with sensitive tears. This world can be much to take, this life can be so rough. Yet intuition is tough. Mighty is her tongue, her pen a spear to battle spheres begging her demise. She, never surprised, consistently rises to the challenges and obstacles. 
Caring for her sacredly, my only hope is she be a testament to other constantly Blooming Flowers, other incessantly Evolving Butterflies. 
Some (will) say I am slow to grow, but I see me enjoying the easy ride before it passes me by ...and Lord, having mercy on me, I be so so so thankful.
 ♥