(Those aren't the titles of the writings, just the premises.)
Just wanna put this out there. Been in my private mind for some time, and I feel a sweetness in sharing as I peruse my thoughts in the moment.
I want to write two prose joints. Two manifestos. Two offerings. Shall they become books or elongated essays, I dig to share my word on being a Fat Girl and an on/off Student (since 97, with no BA to speak of to date). I've experienced sizeism, ageism, sexism, racism under the facets of both. Yet, THEY ARE NOT MY EXPERIENCE.
Fact is, I started a chubby girl and became A Big Woman cuz gyros and Chicken Makhni tastes good. Mama said I was a greedy baby, to start (though born a little too small to take home lol). Plus, I've continuously extremely enjoyed sedentary activities -- reading, writing, coloring, painting, vibing music, photography, open wide, endless conversation, research, cultural anthropology, wine tasting, coffee connossieuring. Lol! So much is being added to this daily.
I have no sob story to tell of how I got where I been and am at today. I am on a journey to raising my wholistic health quota in a myriad of ways, and weight loss & resistance (strength training) are a deep part of it. Weight loss is on a vain level now, as I been coming down, but want my body matching my Spirit. Like ol' boy says on American Beauty -- "I wanna look good naked." Love it.
Same for my college career. I never ONCE used academia as my tool to further my life materially, economically, or otherwise. I loved the instant and continuous access to information, schools of thought, ways of life, opposite paths, minds, souls, hearts, cultures, religions, societies...through the guise of different people, orgs and so on. Not to mention books, books, books! :D I've ENJOYED academia in every single pursuit I could in its still way too damn exclusive and elitist world. I gave a fuck about grades and advancement -- and still don't, except to say Imma go for the gold stars just to keep it moving in higher places, get all I need to become "official" in academia. Spend my life teaching my own way afterwards...nahmean?
Sure, I had it in my mind to eventually earn degrees, but it was never a priority. Now I desire to complete a BA, MFA and PhD so I can do things I want to do as an authority in this society, in particular and to begin with. I seek to earn most of my life as an Educator..but being a Renaissance Woman, this will expand in a myriad of pathways of course. ;)
As I earn my keep in the academic world, I want to speak to present and future students on all levels of study, about my greatness (deeper than any success) and how they too can reach for theirs...because of where I been and how I rose to many occasions and became the illustriously radiant Light I am today. :D That would be the purpose of a written work bout my journey.
WE ARE ALL LUMINARIES LOOKING TO SHINE. And shine we do, fam. Welcome to my personal constellation. ;)
Love yall!
